Tonight I ran into a friend from way waaay back. The encounter, though brief, was something I didn't know I even needed, but now I know I did. It brings tears to my eyes and chills down my spine to recognize that this blessing was over a decade in the making. I haven't even seen him in over a dozen years. He was the roommate of a guy I dated. A few years ago he discovered we both played in a local darts organization and we corresponded a few times and are friends on Facebook. A few weeks ago, he bumped into my husband at a dart event (I wasn't there) and he and Cory chatted and my MS came up. Come to find out he has it too! I never knew! He seems so...normal! He was arriving tonight just as I was dropping Cory off for darts and I am at a loss for words to describe the impact seeing him had on me. I have spent countless hours reading message boards and blogs and informational websites and articles written by and about people with MS and it's freaking scary, man! The disease is a nightmare for a lot of people. And that's what I'm reminded of a lot when I go searching for something seemingly harmless. So, seeing this man driving himself around, getting around on his on two feet without any hindrances, looking all normal-like...wow! Yes! That's what I needed! I needed to see with my own eyes that MS people can look just like everyone else. I needed to be reminded that even if bad spells come, they can pass. I needed to be reminded that sometimes out of our heartaches can come blessings.
This MS thing has caused me, my family, and my friends a lot of heartache. I don't know what it will be or how long we'll have to wait, but I'm certain something good will come of this one day.
I had to chuckle a little as I proof read this. As I got to the end of the first paragraph it reminded me of those clips you see on National Geographic of someone holding a mirror in front of a monkey and finally the monkey realizes it's herself in the mirror. That's exactly what that experience was like, honestly! It's like finally seeing myself and realizing I still look all normal-like. Hey! Maybe I'm ok too!